People

I am always the watcher, the bystander, the listener. I am never the maker, the mover, the creator. I understand people so very well because I actually listen to what they have to say. I can enter anyone's skin and figure out what they are thinking. And I feel compassion for all their pain. Its what I want to do more than anything. I want to be an empath. I want to take other people's emotional pain, absorb it, make it part of me. I want that pain to be mine. I want to take it away from souls that cannot understand it, make it my own and feel all its meaning course through me.

But I am stone.

I do not understand how people let themselves feel pain and despair. We have no reason to feel such things except in reverence. And that is not the pain and despair other people feel. I don't understand how shallow the world is. The fact that no one ever even begins to consider what really matters to them. I refuse to believe that what people do spend their time and thought on is actually what matters to them. I can't imagine that. I can't imagine that the entire world really is wrapped up in trivialities and appearances. I can't believe everyone lives with so little meaning, and never feels that they are missing the most important parts of life. I'm not talking about dedicating your life to donation, charity, and humanitarian efforts being the only worthwhile things. Those are more admirable than what I am thinking of

----If you truly are dedicated to saving life. True life. Not just life, but life worth living. That is beyond what I am thinking of.------

I am only thinking of seeking knowledge. Seeking Truth. Seeking understanding. Seeking beauty. Seeking why and seeking love of all things - that which that binds us and manifests us. Without it, we have no raison detre.